The Year 2008

Today is the last day of December. It has been a very eventful year for me. Looking back, I thank Allah for His blessing in granting all the good things that had happened this year. Although I am not a pious servant to Him, He is always by my side.

In order for me not to forget them, I am listing down some of the major ones here.

1) My dearest sister’s wedding in May

2) My Bangkok trip with all my dearest friends in August

3) We managed to collect RM10k for our annual Ramadan donation drive in September

4) I got myself an automatic car in November

5) I performed my first Qurban through QurbanForLife program

6) We managed to collect RM6k for our 1st Back to School drive

But on top of it all, I am most thankful to HIM for giving me another year with my dearest beloved mom. Although we logged heads at times, I am still greatful for the opportunity.

ALHAMDULLILAH..

Happy New Year, All !!

The Cars....

Amongst my friends, I was the last one to own a car. In fact, I think I was also the last one to get a driving license. They sure don’t call me a late bloomer for nothing! :-)

Anyways, as I was driving back from the car service centre today, I suddenly remember the times when my friend Faz used to ferry me around in her mom’s two doors yellow Honda car before she bought her first car.

And Mimi, also drove us in her mom’s Daihatsu van, which was a very boxy looking van. Sometimes the rides could be bumpy but we sure didn’t mind!

And of course who could forget the time when Norin dropped the bomb on us by telling us that she has been driving without a license although she’s been driving (us!) for quite a while!

Gosh, all these seem like ages ago and so much had happened since then. For all the trials and challenges HE had brought upon us, today, we thank Allah for all his blessings too.

My Boys..

This is my beloved Tom aka Putih..


And this is my beloved Oren..

Holding them just takes all your stress away! If you love cats, that is :-)

As I bid you Farewell

Dec 19, 2008 was a day of mixed emotions for me. As I bid farewell to my loyal companion of 5 years, I recall the good and troubled times we shared over the years.

Therefore, I would like to pen down my thank you to my dear WLB 2260 for all the memories we shared.

I thank you for:

The constant laughter you allowed us to have;
The occasional quiet teardrops you witnessed;
The dead silence you sometimes experienced;
The awful daily singing sessions you had to endure;
The silly gossip sessions you had to listen to;
The loads of people & stuff you had helped to ferry;
And of course, the annual hits & bangs that I caused.

My dear friend, you have treated us well and I pray that the next family that adopts you will treat you kindly.

For Adik..

This was the very2 first cuppies that we made. It was especially for Adik's 24th birthday on Nov 11. The cakes are chocolate almond moist and Baby did the decorations on these too. :)

Cuppies

This is our first cupcake order we made last night. 20 cuppies took us 3 hours to make.. 1st try mah.. so lembap la sikit..:-)

p/s: deco was done by Baby (my youngest sis) with a bit of help from Adik (my 2nd sister)

Time In The Kitchen

With mom being away, my sisters and I suddenly became very good citizens of the kitchen. The kitchen is my mom’s royal kingdom; hence sharing it with her when she is around can sometimes be very trying for us the slow and humble citizens.

Therefore, while her ‘royal highness’ is away; we tried our hands at cooking and baking. Nothing fancy, we cooked simple dishes. My first few tries went down well but last Saturday, I baked macaroni and it was tasteless. On Sunday, I made fried rice and the rice was soft so it becomes very clumpy. Ha-ha...

We also tried our hands at baking. Since Adik’s birthday was in a couple of days, we made cup cakes. I tried on two recipes. One for Chocolate Almond, which turn out well; and the other was Vanilla, which shrunk the minute we took it out of the oven! My baby sister did the deco on the cake as I am useless at decorating. I shall post the photo later as it is still in my sister’s hand phone. It was pretty good for amateurs like us. Oh and for that, we got a Secret Recipe’s Chocolate Indulgence cake today. Not a bad trade, right?

Anyways, this two days being a working day, we are taking a rest from the kitchen except for breakfast time (you will hear me at 630am for that!) Besides, my dear sisters sure look a lot happier and satisfied when we eat out!! Chiss!

Ok, Ok, I get it. This means that I need a lot of practice, right? :-)

Withdrawal Symptoms

These few days, I am experiencing a double whammy...

First, it is with my mom. Although we speak on the phone many times everyday but not having her physically here is somewhat weird. This is the first time that she has been away for long. As I never went away for study, I have always been home with her. Therefore, it is somewhat weird not having her around. Hmmm…

Secondly, it is with a friend. We chatted almost everyday for the past 5 years and suddenly we just stopped. Why did we stop? Well, let us just say that in my effort to put my happiness first before others – this is something that I need to do. However, as the execution was done ‘ala cold turkey’, I am feeling somewhat weird too.. Hmm….

What do I learn from these? For the first, I am appreciating my mom more and I must strive to be a filial daughter. As for the second, I need to be strong and believe that God has greater plans for me.

Are We Really??

Here are some questions for you to ponder. Are we really that happy? Are we really that miserable? Are we really that busy? Are we really that broke? Are we really??

Humans have the tendency to blow things out of proportions. Sometimes we do it because we want to look superior or important. Other times, we do it out of habits.

Here is an excellent example. This morning, my colleague looked like he was kind of ‘free’. He was happily browsing the Net for the US election matters whilst he listens to Red.fm and he even helped me to download Rihanna’s Disturbia song (which I did not ask him too. I only mentioned I like that song!). Then he gets a call, after exchanging greetings, I heard him say, ‘You think I am very free ah? I have 101 emails to go through and support. Just because I am not travelling, it does not mean that I am free, you know!”

We all have been guilty of that. Well, I know I have. Hahaha..

I am sure you are all familiar with this scene. You are surfing the Net or in the midst of poking your friends on Facebook then suddenly, you see your boss walking up to you. What would you do? Me? I always have another tab open that is work related. So when I see him walking, X goes my FB tab and tadaaa.. I am now updating some sales information on to the system! Yes, I am guilty of that because I am not really that busy!

Then we come to the money issue. I always wanted to pay off my credit cards. Yet, every month, I will pay less or just the minimal amount. These past months, I always seem to get a ‘surprise’ bill in my mailbox that will force me to bite into my credit card payment. That and the new book in MPH store window! Haha.. Yes, I am guilty of overspending and although I am not really that broke, but I think I am close!

Lastly, there is my weight issue. My scale, which is under my bed, has not gone below 70kg for the longest time and although I really want the pointer to travel south, I cannot seem to drag myself from the fridge or my face out off the raya cookies jar! Yes, I am guilty for not being able to control my sugar rushes but can you??

p/s: ok, ok.. I guess we will have to talk about my will power (or lack of it) in my next entry!

The School Bus

I will drive pass two primary schools on my way from work everyday. If my timing is off, I will be passing them right after the school session ends. This is when my patience is often tested.

I understand the needs for parents to pick up their children due to the expensive charge of school buses or private cars. However, when these parents takes up 2 out of 3 lanes of the road, it gets pretty darn annoying. Thanks to them, my (and other drivers too) journey home would be delayed. On some days, we would be stationary for a good 5 minutes while waiting for someone to move his or her car!

Anyway, sometimes I do think of the valuable life experiences that these kids are missing.

Throughout my primary and early secondary school years, I took the school bus to school. I made friends (or not) with other children from many different schools. We had kids from Chinese, Indian, co-ed and non co-ed schools. So at times, you need to adapt and tolerate with the different type of behaviors just to maintain some peace in the bus. That was an education by itself!

In primary school, I had to walk across our big school field just to get to the bus. And if it rains, I would have to run across it eventhough I would still be soaking wet when I board the bus. Well, when you were young, you would rather be wet than being seen under an umbrella, right?

When I was thirteen; I had a crush on a boy. Yes, it was a Chinese boy. In the bus, I would always catch him looking at me and we would be exchanging smiles. Being young, we were just to shy to speak to each other. Gosh, that went on for a while. I eventually got a nice valentine card from him too! However, nothing happens after that. I guess that is why we call it a crush! :-)

Anyways, while we are talking about guys, I recently 'bumped' into another guy I knew from the 'school bus' days while I was browsing FB, boy, he sure is a lot taller now!

I also had a few embarrassing incidents in the school bus. I had a few ‘bocor’ incidents too! You know, back in those days, I just used any ‘capalang’ brand of sanitary pads supplied by my mom. I was not fortunate to use “Whispers” or “Stayfree” back then. :-(

I also had a few fights with the kids too especially with those from the Chinese schools. Over what, you might ask? Oh, silly matters really. It could be because I asked our driver to play English songs instead of Cantonese songs or I opened the window too low and they wanted it closed shut so not to spoilt their already 'gel' harden hair. :-p

Anyways, the fun part was, as it was the 80’s, while we waited for the buses; the older boys would be showing off with their break dancing skills. That was truly hilarious!

These are surely much more fun and useful life fulfilling experience than playing PS2 while your mom or dad is driving you home!

Do we really need that Jimmy Choos?

I am always amazed at how some people are willing to part with a huge sum of money just to get those Jimmy Choo’s shoes. I also wonder what make those shoes so darn expensive anyway. If you want comfortable shoes, I am sure you could find a pair that will not cost as much as JC’s but is just as comfortable. Besides, even when I see them on the celebs, they still do not look that comfy.

Anyway, people say that as we progress in life, we need to pamper ourselves but honestly; do we really need to buy all these expensive things? Do we really need to buy those RM1200 shoes to make us happy? It is a truly sad day if ever my happiness would be determine on what shoes I am wearing.

I do not need a JC to make me happy. A chat with an old friend will do. Having a nice meal with my loved ones will do it too. Even laying in bed with a good book will have me smiling too.

Life is short. Make it a memorable one. A pair of shoes will not miss you when you are gone but your loved ones will.

The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini

I have read hundreds of books but none touched me the way this book does. It was such a good read that I finished reading the book in 1 day. Plus, I have never cried so much reading a fictional novel as I did this one.

So, go and read it so we can talk about it! For the ladies, make sure you have a tissue box within your reach because you will need it, trust me!

My entries are too serious

That was the comments from my two dear friends last week. I bet you guys thought the same too.. hehe.. Oh well, this is how I write, people. Let us leave the funny stuff to Nen and Bob, ok?!

Believe me when I say, I tried hard to write about something light. Tapi tak da idea lah..

Apa nak tulis ek? Hmm… Nantilah when I have something ‘light’ I write lah.. but for now, let me write the heavy2 stuff (barulah sesuai with my body mass!)

KIMI

I have always love cats. In the past, we always had stray cats around the house but we never took them in. Last year, we took in our neighbour’s kittens after their mummy died of a tragic death. Sadly, one of the kittens also died about a week later. We buried him in front of the house. Adik even shed a tear for the poor soul, as she was the one who nursed the sick kitten. The surviving kitten, we named him Kimi. Oh, how we all loved that cat. He was very handsome and smart too. We also took him everywhere in the car. He would be restless at first but once he gets motion sickness, he will just doze off.

I remember, one night while Adik was playing with him, he suddenly looked weak and looked as if he could not breathe. So, we drove all the way to the animal clinic in Jalan Pahang for an emergency check up! After taking a jab from the Dr, he was all fine again.

I could also still picture him running down the small hill in front of my house whenever I call upon him in the evenings. He would emerge out of the bushes and you would spot his orange head, first!

Our neighbor also loved him. Some days, Uncle Mansor would take him and played with him for a bit. Kimi also used to hang around in Uncle Mansor’s house. He would walk up and down the stairs as if it was his house too. Well, that was until his wife closed the door on Kimi! I guess she was not too fancy over this furry animal.

Kimi went walking one evening in April and never came back. That morning, before going to work, I held him for a while and when I put him down and said goodbye, he stared at me until I closed the door between us. Maybe he was saying his goodbye to me then.

We prayed for his safe return. We looked for him everywhere. I made flyers and distibuted it around the neighborhood. Sadly, we had no luck. It was just as if he had walked off from the face of this earth. To us, even if we only found his body, we would be grateful. At least we could give him a proper burial he rightly deserved and we would have our closure.

So, even though I have 2 new cats today (will write about them later), at times, I still think of Kimi. He was just special to us. He gave us much laughter and happiness. I hope we will meet again in the world after. Insyallah..

Act of Selfishness

A friend shared a problem with me today. One of his girl friends is pregnant and the father of the child refuses to marry her. So I asked, why does this man refuse to marry? Well, she is not the type he is looking for and my friend commented that these two are just wrong for each other.

My friend questioned me on what good is it to marry someone you do not love. "It is just a perfect recipe for disaster" he said. “Cause it would be a responsible thing to do”, I said. “Even to be divorce later?” he asked. Well, who are we to say that it will get to that? We do not know of God’s plan. We cannot predict the future. We are mere mortals. We are not God.

Later, I found out that she does not want to marry him either. So go figure! All my aggravation was for nothing!

Apparently, these two people know each other for along time. This act of screwing around is a normal habit for them. Astaghfirullah. Then, all I say is that this could be a wake up call from God Al Mighty for these two morons.

She wants to abort the pregnancy while he promised he would support the kid financially to save the pregnancy. To him, as long as he is willing to support her financially, there shouldn't be any reason for her to abort the pregnancy. What a joke, I quietly said to myself. These two are purely selfish in their actions. I wonder how they could both sleep at night. Could she sleep after she aborted the pregnancy knowing that she terminated a life or could he, knowing that he has fathered a child out of wedlock?

Anyway, yesterday a friend commented on an article she read about a father who raped his own daughter. That is another act of selfishness. How a father could force himself on his own flesh? This is sheer devil in action.

If only human beings could stop and think of the repercussions of their selfish actions, this world would be a much better place to live in. Oh, they should not forget about the world hereafter. Everything you do in this world will come back to haunt you in the afterworld. Nothing escapes God Al Mighty.

When The Chef Is Out

I am not much of a cook. All my dear friends could attest to that. But, although I hardly ever cooked in the past, these days I will try to cook whenever the kitchen is available. After all, an amateur like me cannot really cook when the master chef aka my mom is around, right?

So today, as I had the house to myself, I planned to cook. Nothing fancy (amateur, remember?), I was planning to make chicken stew and fish sambal. Therefore, after I surf the net for the recipe, I went to the sundry shop to get all the ingredients.

The result? I would say I am satisfied with my sambal but my chicken stew became chicken soup instead!! Hahaha… The very clever old me, defies the recipe instruction to add 2 cups of water to the mix and instead I added 4 cups! So of course, my stew became soup! However, it tasted great - to me la … Let’s wait for the verdict from the rest, later, ok?

Lesson learnt, I need to stick to the recipe and do not be a smart ass! :p

Be Thankful

As humans, we often take life for granted. Due to our busy life, we go about doing our business almost like the emotionless robot. We often fail to appreciate the small things in life and we tend to forget to be thankful for what we have. When we do sit to enjoy the fruits of our success, we often felt that it is a direct result of our years of hard work.

However, do we ever think of those angels who had helped and supported us along the way? Do we ever thank them for it? Do we even remember their names?

I have been very blessed throughout my working life. At 19, my first job was as an accounts clerk at Johnson & Johnson Medical. As the youngest one there, I had many mentors who thought me the ropes. I learned how to do basic accounting, how to write or print cheques, how to correctly converse with customers and many more. Most importantly, I learn how do use the computer.

When I started working with Mesiniaga in 1995, I had to use the typewriter to issue out the company’s purchase orders. As it was the first time for me to use it, I spoilt so many copies of the forms initially. It was a carbon copy form, so I had to use a new form each time I made an mistake in typing. I was so afraid of loosing my job over this.:-)

The past 16 years has been a wonderful journey.

Looking back, I could see an 18-year-old girl holding her SPM results standing at the bus stop in front of her school, wondering what to do next. The one thing I can tell you now is that never in a million years would she dare to dream of achieving as much as she has today.

Therefore, I am truly thankful for all the guidance and help that I got along the way. I learned valuable work as well as life lessons. I made some life long friendships too.

For these gifts, I am thankful to Allah for all His blessing and I am thankful to everyone who had helped me along the way.

Got this in my email today..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a youth she's content to leave behind....


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a feeling of control over her destiny...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself..


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table... or a charming inn in the woods... when her soul needs soothing...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...

When people say…

When we were younger, we used to listen to everything that the older folks tell us. “Do not play outside when it’s hot.”, “Do not take a bath immediately after returning home from the playground.” and “Do not go to bed immediately after a meal.” We obediently listened and obeyed without raising the question why.

When we were younger, we always look up to our parents or the people around us for guidance or affirmations on the things we do daily. The smiles were wide and the sense of pride ran deep in our hearts when compliments were given over things we did based on the guidance given.

However, as we get older, we tend not to listen well and because of that, we tend to get hurt time and time again. Somehow, as we are older, we felt that it is not important to listen to other people’s guidance, advice or opinions. We often felt that we are well equipped and strong enough to go through life without them.

I fell for a guy. Over the years, people around me kept saying (either subtly or to my face) that he is not the right one but I choose to ignore them. How would they know? They didn’t know him. They didn’t spent time with him like I did. They didn’t talk to him as much as I did. So, how would they know he’s not the right one?

But today, with my head held up high, I face the reality. I felt a tug in my heart telling me that whatever dream that I once had about us is never going to be a reality. And although it pains me, it is really time for me to move on. I harbor no bad feelings towards him as he had never said or promised me anything. It was just the plain silly, romantic and sentimental old me that went beyond what it really was.

As I am a firm believer of everything happens for a reason – this one tells me that HE has better plan in place for me...

The week that passed...

It’s been a long week for me. Not having much to do in the office make my time at work seems extremely long. Thank god for chat tools for I spent most of my time chatting with friends. Yes, I am guilty of that but its not like I have other things to do. :-p

I've been feeling agitated and irritable this week too. It's like I have this huge rock inside of me that's pulling me down. Sometimes it feels as if I am drowning. Maybe I would feel better if I scream all my frustration away. Could you find me a sound proof room, please?

I am tired to always have to pick up someone’s slack. For always being the fall back person. The one everybody can depend on. Sometimes I quietly wish that I could just drop everything off my back and say to hell with it all!! I just don't seem to have the patience, the energy and the perseverance that I once have. As my status in FB today states, ‘screw it!!’ haha..

Having the clouds pouring its guts out on most of the evenings this week doesn't help too. I know rain is a blessed sign from Allah but getting stuck for hours in crawling traffic amidst the selfish and crazy KL drivers is a real test to one's patience, especially when you drive in a manual car such as mine. This is why I am thinking of changing to an automatic car. It’s a good time to sell my Iswara as the buying price currently matched the balance of my bank loan. However, having a new car would mean more expenses and with the recession looming, I am not sure if it is a good move. But if I don’t sell off the car now, its value will drop lower than my loan balance in a few months time. So guys, I am in a dilemma... Please help me to decide.

And here's to hoping that the weekend will bring more laughter in my life. God knows how much I need it.

In The Next 5 months..

I will

1. have more 'me' time (to do my reading, writing, to travel or hang out w friends)
2. loose 5kg
3. run 2 donation drive (in dec 08 & mac 09)
4. save some $$ (hopefully will be enough for me to perform my umrah)

hmm... i actually wanted to have 5 things to target for but can't really come up with the last one right now.. so let's concentrate on these for now..

wish me luck guys! ;-p

This Hari Raya

This is the first raya where we celebrated without one of my sisters. Kakak who got married in May had to celebrate Raya in JB as her hubby is put on stand by by the arm forces. It felt kind of strange to me and I am sure the whole family felt it too.

This is also the first raya where we didn't make any baju raya for ourselves. The plan was to wear our cream coloured kurung which we made for Kakak's wedding. Even though I was fine with it before but when the actual day came, it just felt weird to me.

We also broke one of the family traditions - we didn't take any family raya photos..

That's why this raya feels a bit off for me..

Hopefully, in the next 25 days to come, it will get better..


Everything happens for a reason - this one tells me to make sure I have a new baju kurung for Hari Raya - no matter what! hehe...

The Act of Forgiveness

Hari Raya is always said to be the day that we ask/seek for forgiveness for all our wrong doings in the past year. I for one am a person who seeks forgiveness easily and I often cry when I do so. I get laughed at by my sisters when I cry while I salam my parents. heck.. I even cry when my younger sisters salam me. That's just me being the big old crying lady!

Anyway, sometimes I wonder, when we ask for forgiveness, are we really granted one? Or is it just merely an act? Has it become a mere routine during Hari Raya that we say "Maaf Zahir Batin" when we shook hands with our family and friends? Did we really mean it? And do we really forgive the person who is asking for it and are we really forgiven?

So with my mom, I always make sure I asked, "mak ampunkan ye" and make sure she said "Ye, mak ampunkan". Being unmarried, my heaven is supposedly to be under my mom's feet so as long as my mom's has forgiven me, I feel like the doors of heaven has opened up for me. :-)

Forgiving someone is a tall order. For some, it is easily given while some find it hard to forgive. For the latter, I wonder if they themselves have never sought for other's forgiveness. Are they a form of a higher being that never made any mistakes in their lives? For us as the servants of Allah, surely at one time or another had hurt some one's feeling. We surely had 'step on some one's tail" or "jerk some one's chains" So it just bewildered me to see how some people could hold on to grudges for years and does not grant forgiveness no matter how many times forgiveness is seek upon.

As we live in this world on such borrowed time, it is important that we seek and grant forgiveness whenever it is deemed or seek upon. Remember, Allah loves those who forgives and make amends.

Ramadan 2008

There's only a day left for Ramadan this year. The Holy month of Ramadan has always been a very special month for me. It has always been a month for self reflection and self evaluation.

This year, surprisingly what impacted me most was my sudden feel of longing for my late father. I was at terawih when the ustaz called upon the names of arwah yang we will do tahlil for that night and his name were called out. Mind you, this is a person whom I have never met from the day I was born till the day he passed away.

Tears were running softly down my cheek throughout the bacaan tahlil for this man. This is the name that I carried behind mine for the past 35 years and till the day I die. I suddenly realised that I only say a prayer for him once a year. Does that make me a bad daughter? I guess it does. And that saddens me more..

Ayah, I can't say I Love You as any good daughters would as I do not know you.

Ayah, I can't find any nice words to describe you to my friends as any good daughters would as I have never met you.

Ayah, I can't recall any happy memories with you as any good daughters would as I never had a chance to experience one with you.

However, this Ramadan, I made a promise to myself that I will include you in my doa at the end of each of my solat. I pray that Allah forgives you for leaving me and I pray that Allah placed you amongst His faithful servants.

I also pray that when you look down at me from where ever you are that you would be proud of me and who I have become.

Al Fatihah.

The Amazing Facebook

Everyone seems to be on Facebook now. Some joined willingly while some joined due to peer pressure.. haha..but it is really a great tool. I am reacquainted with many of my old school mates and made some new friends via FB.

I found Aza, whom i last seen and spoke to since her wedding, many years ago. She's got 3 sons now.

I found Maizura, Azlina Abas, Azlina Norbeg, Jayn, Azura, Karen - all classmates in Sri Aman.

I found ex-colleagues from Mesiniaga, IBM & Microsoft.

Its great to catch up with old friends on the happenings of their life now. Some married, some still single like me. Some worked and some not anymore (how lucky!). Some gain some weights since we last meet - some not (argh!!)

So all in all, its been great.

Thank you, FB!


Everything Happens for a Reason - this one - while the creator of FB is a millionaire now, we get to reconnect with old friends and this can be priceless!

Lets Put a Smile on Their Faces - Yr 2

Alhamdullilah.. this year marked the 2nd year I ran this donation drive. It's the 3rd drive that I have done so far and it has been the most successful. Syukur Alhamdullilah again, firstly to Allah who helped me along the way. A heartfelt THANK YOU to all the angels that contributed towards it. Without all the supports, I am just a mere driver. So, I am truly and deeply blessed and humbled.

In total, we collected about RM10k plus in cash. We also collected a lot of other sundry items like beras (110kg), milk powder, Milo, condensed milk. We used some of the cash money as Duit Raya for the kids & we also prepared 77 goodie bags for each kids aging 6 and above. It has been a really hectic week for us as we had to go out after Buka Puasa to buy all the stuff for the goodie bags and get pack them individually. However, looking at their faces while they were opening and checking out the bags, makes it all worth while. I must say that I truly love doing this. If only I m as rich as Oprah.. haha..

I would like to thank Auntie Azah, Fazlina, Kak Zaini, Liza, Ikhwan aka Bong, Razim and of course my sisters for being there and helping to distribute the joy.

Everything Happens for a reason - this one, teaches us to be humble and be thankful for all that He has given to us.

Buka Puasa Do

Wow.. It's been months since I posted my last blog. I must admit that after reading Nen's and Mimi's blog (and also Bob Danial's - of course!) over the last few days, I am drawn to write again.. hehe..

We had a buka puasa do last Saturday and it was a blast. I thank God everyday for He has given me a set of friends for life. I may not have hundreds of friends but these 5 that i have - i know i can count on them no matter what. So again, i thank ALLAH Al-Mighty for them.

It was certainly a nice end to my day, as earlier in the day, a few friends and I delivered our Ramadan donations to an orphanage. I will write about that in my next blog.

So to my dear dear friends, Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin. I look forward to our next meeting soon!

My favourite song at the moment....

Bila Nak Saksi - SPIDER

Wajah mu kerap ku mimpi
Wajah mu sering ku puja
Buatku terasa sepi
Kala ku bukakan mata

Kau masih belum pun ku punya
Rinduku masih kau tak peka

Cintamu kerap ku mimpi
Cintamu sering ku damba
Buatku terasa sedih
kala ku bukakan mata

Kau masih belum pun ku dakap
Rinduku masih kau tak singkap

Bila nak saksi
Kau datang terkulai
Bila nak saksi
Kau datang membelai
Bila nak saksi
Cintaku sampai

Dirimu kerap ku mimpi
Dirimu sering ku khayal
Aku angan-angankan
Kau dapat bersama

Nyatakan cinta yang terpendam
Membina istana tersergam

Bila nak saksi
Kau datang terkulai
Bila nak saksi
Kau datang membelai
Bila nak saksi
Cintaku sampai

Kau masih belum pun ku punya
Rinduku masih kau tak peka

Bila nak saksi
Kau datang terkulai
Bila nak saksi
Kau datang membelai
Bila nak saksi
Cintaku sampai
Bila nak saksi
Cintamu kugapai

Dirimu kerap ku mimpi
Dirimu sering ku khayal
Aku angan-angankan

How time flies...

Gosh...

January came and left very very swiftly.. It seems just yesterday I was stucked in a traffic jam on New Year's Eve with Zaini and her son on the way to fetch Adik from work. We just passed TGIF when the fireworks started and everybody just conviniently stopped their cars in the middle of the roads and walk out without a care in the world. Anyways, I am a 5 year old kid everytime I see fireworks in action... haha... I get so so excited...

Anyways, January's been fun.. I had a group get together at home. My closest friend and I got to meet up with Farha whom we have not seen for ages!! Since I was 17, if I must say. It was just so much fun to catch up with each other... Thank God for the opportunity for us to meet her again.. A grand 35th birthday plan was also conceived during this meet.. Gosh - we'll all be 35 this year!! Of course Nur will have the honor to be there first and me last.. haha...

After the meet, we uploaded some photos on to Facebook.. Mimi however added something special. She found a box of our old photos and uploaded them as well... I was just 13 in one of the photos.. haha... anyways, what shocked me most was a photo where Shahrul was in it.. I have not seen him for ages - to the point that I do not remember how he looks like! So you can imagine how my heart 'skipped a beat' when I saw the photo... There's the guy who broke my heart into a million pieces and I haven't be able to collect the pieces back and put them in place till now.. sigh... but whatever it is, I wish him all the happiness in the world and pray that he's in a good place in life right now...

My colleagues went and came back from US.. it was like xmas day when each of them gave me a present from the State. I m know a very proud owner of a Coach bag!! So its a small sling bag - so what?? It is still COACH!! hahaha....

Got a few new books this month - got a pair of new shoes too - got a couple of blouses - got to meet a few friends for drinks - so its been quite a month..

A friend said I've been acting weird... hmm.... I wonder what makes him said that.. but i guess everyone is entitled to their opinion..

A friend also said I have to stop being a mother to my sisters... hmm.. I wonder if that will take off this weight on my shoulders..

A cousin when on and on about my lack passion for cooking... hmm... I wonder if that make me a lesser person that she is..

God willing... I am letting go and moving on....

Beryl's Chocolate

Today, i had a mission to complete.. i was going to find the Beryl's show room in Seri Kembangan and i must reach the place by 230pm cause thats when it closes on a Saturday..

Before going out, i managed to speak to the sales lady so i have the prices of the stuff i wanted.. so going there was just for me to see the size of the chocolates which i planned to give away as bunga telur for kakak's wedding..

5 minutes out of the house, i realised that i didnt have the address or the phone number with me.. all i have was just a memory snapshot of where the place will be.. so being the macho me, i continued on...

All was well untill i took the wrong turn (always happens to me, of course) and went to the other side of where i wanted to go. I was trying to find a way to make a U-turn but that was no where in sight.. sigh.. so i called a friend who apparently was on his way to toilet, so he wasn't much of help but he did pointed out that i should call my sister instead since she is online with his son (long story - belongs to another blog)

Anyways, after talking to my sister - i found the way there...

The place was very tiny compared to what i pictured in mind. Bought my chocolates and left.. we did try to spend a longer time looking around the shop, since it took us an hour to get there, but the place was really2 small so 15minutes felt like an hour.. so, we left..

So, it was lucky that i found the place, else i surely will hear my co-pilot (my mom) yapping about it the whole way back..

p/s: Everything happens for a reason.. next time, print the map!!

Locked Out!!

I was locked out of my office yesterday.. i went to the toilet without realising that i left my office door tag laying on my table! darn smart of me, i must say...

As I was just stepping away from the door, i realised that i didn't have my tag with me so immediately i turn around.. but only to helplessly watched the door swung closed and clicked. For a moment then, i wished i had elastic limps so i can stretch my hands to the door handle or a longer legs so i can step wider and reach the door handle in time... sigh...

so.. i had to wait for about an hour and a half for help to come and open the doors for me... thank god my guys was around.. if this happened next week, i would fry my ass off as none of my colleagues will be in the country...

everything happens for a reason.. this is God's way of telling me.. always wear your office tag around your neck!!

aye aye, chief!!

2nd Try

I created a blog page yesterday. Was feeling super excited about it since i have been wanting to start my own blog for years but never get around to do it.. Its seems like perfect timing with the new year and all, for me to start one..

Anyhow, today is a different story. I tried to access my blog but for some reason (that usually only happens to me!), i am not able to access the page.. so not to be defeated, i created another one today... haha.. so.. this is my first official blog.. provided i can access this account once i log out..

anyways, everything happens for a reason... :)